Crochet Braids Pt. 5

I usually get big, curly hair but this time around I decided to try something a little different. I chose to use  Freetress Loose Appeal to get a looser wave type of look. Initially, I was intending on having it past my shoulders, just to try something new. But the hair was curlier than I expected so having it long would not look right. After having it put in, I'd have to say I'm not that big a fan of this hair. It's cute but I don't think it suits me well. I've gotten a lot of compliments but I'm not really feeling  this hair as much as the curlier looks. From now on, I'll probably only get tighter curled hair that looks a bit more natural. Anyway, here's the look:

Kinda cute. Not my favorite look. So far I've had it in for one week but let's see how long this will last...

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Whooo! Big Hair!!!

After doing the roller set Sunday night, my hair was completely stretched and almost straight. So I took advantage and decided to have big hair all week!

Tuesday - Bantu Knot-Out

Wednesday - Fluffy Braidout

Thursday - Bantu Knot Out pt2

Friday - Braidout pt 2

I am sooo glad that I can get big ass hair! It's been a struggle but now I'm glad to be in the big hair club! Whoop whoop! This week I've been called Diana Ross and Chaka Khan and I'm looooving it :). I know I'm nooo where near to being on their level yet, but I'm working on it.

Too bad that come next week I'll have my hair back in hiding lol. Updates soon...

Sweet Love

I decided that my first song would be "Sweet Love" by Anita Baker. I love her voice and I figured I could handle this song. It came out, ummmm...interesting? I sound a little flat at times and I still sound like a 12 year old but ehh, whatever. I did it right?

Sorry for the rambling and hopefully I don't sound too horrible lmao

I think my biggest problem is that I don't know what MY voice sounds like because I always try to emulate what I hear. So it becomes a bit scary when I have to sing and actually make songs my own. I'm not too sure how to do that yet. Working on it though :)

I need to find my voice

I'm completely terrified of singing in public. I finally figured out why - I don't trust my voice. I've been hiding from my voice for as long as I can remember. I have never allowed myself to break out from the background, out of my fears that I won't sound good or even worse, that I will. Crazy, I know. Most of the time I hold back and I don't allow myself to actually sing. For as long as I can remember, I've been complaining that I don't have a strong singing voice and I sound like a little girl. But how the hell could that ever change if I don't let myself just sing??? Yeah, so I have a plan.

I need to find my voice.

In order for me to do that I need to start singing...publicly. I am going to start recording videos of me singing some of my favorite songs and posting them here on my blog. Since I'm still a punk, I will not be posting them on YouTube lol. But its all good right? Baby steps, baby steps...

Roller Set

Last night I decided to try my first roller set. It came out, ummm interesting...

I used Creme of Nature Argan Oil Foaming Wrap Lotion and what I thought was a little bit of olive oil. When I took out the rollers this morning my hair was all types of greasy smh. I guess I didn't need to use the olive oil lol. I was just being cautious because my hair dries out rather quickly. The set didn't take me more than an hour and it wasn't that difficult to do. I do know that I did not pull the hair taught enough and I missed a few pieces of hair. I was a bit scared that my hair wouldn't be dry by morning but it came out semi-straight, soft and bouncy. This is something that I definitely will be revisiting - with a better technique, minus the oil lol.

I figured I could do a little length check since my hair is semi-straight. It won't be long till my hair is bra strap length :D

Tired of Being Miserable Pt.II

I am not approachable. I know this. I've written about it More. Than. Once.

A couple of weeks ago while I was home during break, my cousin came over and surprised me. When he came in I was on the phone with a friend so I hung up and said "bye boo." Now if you know me, you know that I throw around boo, baby, lover, love etc. when I'm talking to close friends/family. But since he would have no way of knowing this (we just got re-acquainted over the summer...long story lol) he assumed that I was talking to a male interest. I quickly shut down that notion, stating that I don't even talk to boys. And he was like, "Yeah I know, cuz you keep it that way." And you know what? He's right. I'm alone completely by choice. It's not that I don't want to get to know men or date anyone, because I do. It is more because of the fact that I don't allow for situations to come up. I don't look approachable, which probably scares off dudes, I don't "put myself out there," and I don't put much effort into trying to meet new people. If I don't put out the energy or vibes that say "hey I'm open and friendly, oh and I won't cut you" no one will ever wanna talk to me. I know that I am responsible for the energy that surrounds me. If I don't ever put out the energy that I am actually open and available, nothing will ever change.

I guess I just need to figure out how to go about doing that.


Part III ? We'll see...

Tired of Being Miserable

Sometimes I forget that I have the power to control my moods.


Last night I was in a disgustingly horrible mood. I just couldn't stop thinking about how fucked up life is. Then I caught myself. Why the hell should I be sitting around moping around dwelling on how shitty things are when I have the power to change them? Even if I didn't have the power to change my situation, I would still have the power to change my outlook on life. When I got up this morning it seemed like every damn thing pissed me off. What the hell? After I left my 9:25 class something changed. I'm not too sure exactly what happened but I just felt good as hell. And it made me realize something. I should feel this way every damn day. And you know why? Because I have that power. I just can't forget it anymore. I can walk around smiling and happy just because I feel like it. And I will.


Side note: I hate, absolutely HATE it when I'm in a great mood and my friends are like "Ooh Shatera, what's wrong? What's up? Why you smiling? What you happy for?"

I hate this for two reasons:
1. What does it say about me that being in a good mood is out of the norm for me? Yeah, kinda sad.
2. Why the fuck are you complaining about me feeling good? Just leave it alone. Let me smile and don't burst my bubble.

Anyway....I am going to try my best to keep a positive attitude. I'm just too damn tired of being miserable.


Part II coming soon...