Day 17: Something that you're proud of

I honestly don't know...

Day 16: Something you always think "what if..." about

I don't really like to think about "what ifs" because I feel like they are pointless. Whatever happened has already happened and no matter how much I think about it, nothing can ever change the past. But occasionally I do wonder how life would be if my father never passed away. It's been almost 7 years since I lost him to lung cancer and sometimes I still can't believe he's gone. I think about him all the time. Wondering how he would feel about certain things, what advice he would give me, and if he would be proud of me. When I start thinking like this I have to catch myself and stop it. All it does is make me sad because there are no answers to these questions. I will never know "what if..." but what I do know is that I will always have my memories and they will never go away.


Here's a pic of me with my father and sister the day of my JHS graduation June 2004, just 6 months before we lost him...

Day 15: Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality

I am a Pisces and yes I actually do believe that I match up to the characteristics of my Zodiac sign. I'm not a diehard horoscope believer but whenever I read something about Pisces, about 85% of the time I can apply it to myself. Maybe its true, maybe its not. I don't really care either way. Here's some info I found on zodiac-signs-astrology.com that I felt suited me well:

Pisces Strength Keywords:

- Compassionate
- Adaptable
- Accepting
- Devoted
- Imaginative

Pisces Weakness Keywords:

- Oversensitive
- Indecisive
- Self-pitying
- Lazy
- Escapist

Positive Pisces Qualities:

Negative Pisces Qualities:

I can see how I embody most of these characteristics. The only thing I would have to disagree with is ultra popular. I never have been popular and that's something I just don't see for myself. But other than that, I am definitely a Pisces lol.

Day 14: What you wore today

I was noooo where near cute today lol. I just threw on some jeans, a green shirt and some flip flops to run a few errands. I thought I wasn't all that cute, didn't feel anywhere near sexy yet there was a shitload of men all up in my face. Walking down the street, in the supermarket, in the corner store...I couldn't escape them lol. I was so confused. I mean I'm used to this happening cuz its been this way since I was like 13 but damn...today it was crazy. I'm just gonna assume it was because of my big hair lol

Day 13: Your opinions about your body and how comfortable you are with it

Sometimes I look in the mirror and I'm like "damn, ain't that one sexy chick" while other times I feel like "ughh what the fuck??" Of course this is normal. No one is completely in love with their body 24/7. We all have our days. But lately I've been having more of the not so great days. I love my body, I love my shape, my curves and my height. What I don't like is my size. I've finally reached a weight that I feel is unacceptable. I never wanted to feel like this. I've been overweight for quite a bit but now I'm beginning to feel uncomfortable. That is not a good look and is definitely not a good feeling. I seriously need to commit to being a healthier me. I  just need to stop talking and take action. I can't go on like this.

Day 12: Five guys whom you find attractive

1. Lance Gross - (When he's NOT playing Calvin Payne of course lol). I watched Our Family Wedding about 4 times and I just wanted to lick him. He's so chocolatey yum :)

2. Common - He's just so sexy to me. I'd love to kiss each and every one of his freckles and his voice is sexy as hell.

3. Eric Benet - I think he came out of the womb sexy! I've been drooling over him for a good long time and I swear he just looks better with age. And his voice? He just oozes sexiness. Too bad he just got married. Now my chances of being with him have decreased from 3% to .5% smh





4. Mehcad Brooks - (Only from the neck down and when he's not talking). Not the greatest actor and not the greatest looking but mmmm look at that body *wipes drool off chin*

5. LL Cool J - I know he's 43 but I don't care. I used to be sooo in love with this man when I was younger. Judge me all you want but Todd is still a sexy ass man. Yeah I called him Todd, we're cool like that lmao




BONUS
6. Alcide Herveaux from True Blood. Yeah I know his real name is Joe Manganiello but I don't want Joe, I want Alcide's sexy werewolf ass! He's just so big and sexy and the fact that he's so sweet makes him even more attractive. Mmmmmm

Day 11: Your family

Me with my mother & sister on Easter in 2009.