Spring is Coming :)

I love when I can smell Spring in the air. I know that's its been freezing and snowing lately but I still can feel Spring coming soon. Spring is my favorite time of the year because I can feel the shift in everything. The weather breaks, the flowers and trees bloom, the birds chirp...it's beautiful. I know I sound like some mushy love song but that's exactly how I feel when April rolls around. Can't wait :)

On another note, springtime symbolizes new life and new beginnings. I look forward to new things happening in my life. Right now I feel like my life is at a standstill and I refuse to continue feeling this way. Last week I was feeling good about myself and trying to stay positive. I'm trying to keep the momentum up because I am tired of feeling sorry for myself. I'm tired of moping around the house sad and unfulfilled. I may not have a job but I can find something else to do with my time. Something productive. This bump on a log shit has to end.

On another other note, when the weather breaks I always feel like its time to get twitterpated. If you don't know what that means, I'll let Owl explain it to you:



Bambi was my favorite movie growing up lol. Anyway, its been a longggg time since I was twitterpated. Every spring that feeling of wanting to comes back. I guess its just something in the air. 

Firework

Katy Perry's "Firework" from her 2010 album Teenage Dream



I ♥ this song :)

Crochet Braids Pt. 7 - Birthday Hair :)

My birthday was this past Thursday and leading up to last week I couldn't figure out what I wanted to do with my hair. Recently, I haven't felt like dealing with my hair and I knew I needed to put it away for a while. So of course, my first thought was to get some crochet braids. They're cheap, low maintenance and they don't put unnecessary stress on my hair. I've wanted to try long wavy hair for a long time so I quickly decided that is what I'd do. I had a moment of clarity and for once in my life, I made a decision in 5 minutes and I decided to stick with it. After deciding on wavy hair I then had to decide on which wavy curl lol. There's a lotttt to choose from smh. A while ago my sister had Freetress Appeal and I loved it on her so I just went with that. As far as the color went, I thought #2 was too dark and #4 was too light so we blended them together. And I loveddddd the results! Oh did I mention that the hair is 24 inches? Yeah...we only did a bit of trimming because I couldn't let go of the length...or the volume. We used almost 4 packs, which is probably too much hair. But ask me how much I care! Not one bit. Nope. I loooove my hair. Maybe just a bit too much...

This look is verrrry different from anything I've ever done with my hair. It was a bit to get used to at first but I got over that quick. I was afraid that I would look like one of those weaved up chicks with way too much hair on their heads, walking around thinking they are cute, when in reality, they look like a hot mess. That fear subsided quickly. I'm feeling good so I. Don't. Care.

This hair probably won't last as long as my curlier crochet braids since it's easier for this curl to get flat. When it gets old I will be putting it in a bun, a big braid, any other style I could think of and cutting it shorter. Hopefully this can last at least 3 weeks. We'll see :)

Games

Chuckii Booker's "Games" from Niice 'n Wiild (1992)






I looove this song! My favorite part is the end...why you wanna plaaaaaaaay oooooh! lmao

Braid N Curl

For Valentine's Day there were a bajillion new natural hair tutorials. I came across NikkiMae's version of a braid n curl.



I've seen this style plenty of times before but I've never seen such fluffy results. Her hair would probably be more defined if it had dried all the way but I enjoyed the look anyway.

I plan on doing this style soon. My mini twists have run their course and I decided against doing the party tendrils. I'll do that some other time. Ooh random - I did a rollerset on my twists, which stretched the hell out of them. So I've been wearing my twists in a ponytail for the last two days. I haven't worn a ponytail since...high school? Yeah, something like that. I'm a little hype about my little pony lol. Oh yeah, back to the braid n curl...

Ooh maybe I'll finally use the free jars of Curls Unleashed Curl Defining Creme and Curl Boosting Jelly from the Curly and Lovely giveaway that I won back in November. Did I ever mention that before? Oh yeah, I received two full sized, 16 ounce jars of product. Clearly, they have been just sitting around, not being used lol. Well, my mother uses the Creme from time to time so I need to put it to use before she steals it lol. Updates soon :)

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Last night I had a dream that I was talking to some people and out of nowhere I just started screaming. I let out a couple of loud, angry screams. It was so random, I frightened the people I was talking to. I woke up feeling confused, I wasn't sure if I had done it in real life or not. When I realized that it was just a dream, I wished that it wasn't. I've been this weird combination of sad and angry these past few days. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm restless, then I'm lethargic. Most of the time I'm just tired of being. Not in a suicidal way, in a "What the FUCK am I doing with myself" way. I just feel so damn purposeless.


Some days all I want to do is run away from home. I wish I could just pick up and leave...go somewhere else and be a someone else. Usually, halfway through this fantasy I realize that thinking like that is a waste of time. Instead of wanting to escape, I need to make my life better. Running away won't help. It's just that sometimes I get so fed up with my life and how things are going. And fixing it seems so damn hard. I'm so unhappy right now. But sitting around sad and angry doesn't solve a damn thing. I need to take action. Soon. I can't keep on this way. I just can't.

Put That on Everything

"Put That on Everything" from Brandy's Never Say Never (1998)




I love me some Brandy :)

I ♥ Big Ass Hair!

I love Solange. I love her for her boldness, for her lyrical ability, for her quirky fashion sense and for her hair. Oh man, her hair! Since she cut off all of her hair three years ago, she fluctuates between wearing her own hair and wearing curly weaves and wigs. I drool whenever I see obnoxiously big curly hair, whether it is real or not. And I could not stop drooling when I saw pictures of Solange at her sister's HBO premiere of Life Is But A Dream. Look at this big ass hair:

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Seeing this picture has me thinking about getting some curly crochet braids. It's been a while and that would be a good protective style that I could leave my hair in for a couple months. Hmmm...

This picture also brought to mind a video that I watched a few weeks ago. India from MyNaturalSistas did a big curly fro tutorial that had me drooling.



The style that India did for the first half, I've done before and I love the results. But I've never picked my hair out to get more body like she did in the second half. I  know there are tons of naturals that do this to add life to their hair but for some strange reason I've just never gave it a try. I usually separate, fluff and play with my roots to try to add body. Maybe next time I'm trying to get big ass hair I'll use a pick. If I can find mine...I haven't used it since 2010 lol.

Literary Thursday...Not Quite

With my nephew staying at my house, between feeding him and changing his diapers, there hasn't been much time for me to pick up a book. The only book that I'm kinda sorta reading right now is the New York State Department of Motor Vehicles Driver's Manual. Fun reading right? lol

By summertime I should have my permit. And my license...before I'm 25 I guess lol. I've never had much of a desire to learn how to drive or own a car. Getting my license won't hurt though. I'm sure it'll come in handy.

So In Love

Since last Thursday I've had the pleasure of spending time with my nephew/godson. Never in a  million years would I expect to be so in love with such a tiny person. I've spent years being scared of babies and trying my best to avoid them. They're just so tiny and helpless, I didn't ever want to be held accountable or have such responsibility. Well, things have changed. This little boy has stolen my heart. Everything about him is beautiful, from his smile, to his yawn, to even his shrill cry lol. I don't even mind that he's peed in my hand, pooped on my leg and thrown up down my shirt. When he looks at me my heart melts and all I wanna do is make sure he is ok. I've always wanted to be a mother, so I figured I would just deal with my issues with babies when I would have my own. Now that I have my "practice baby" I am more than confident and excited about my future motherhood.

Damn, I'm growing up lol.

How could you not love that face?