April 19, 2009

Anticipating My Naps!

For as long as I can remember I've always envied people with curly hair. I would look at their hair and wish mine wasn't so boring. I'd wish this limp shit on my head would become interesting and lively with some curls. But now I realize that I wasn't envious of these other people. I wasn't longing for something I couldn't have, I was longing to go back to my roots (literally lol). It was not my choice to chemically alter my hair. My aunt decided that she no longer wanted to braid my hair so at the young age of 10, I got my first relaxer. I've been relaxing my hair because supposedly its easier to handle, you could do more with straight hair and its more acceptable by society. BLAH BLAH BLAH BULLSHIT.

For almost 9 years I've had straight hair and it was normal to me. But now I realize that what's normal is not chemically processing my hair. The way my hair is naturally is the way my hair should be. For the past year and a half I have been back and forth about growing out my hair. When I went 6 months without a relaxer I realized, hey I don't NEED a relaxer. My hair is just fine. But out of convenience I got a touch up. Then another 6 months went by and I swore up and down that I was not gonna relax it...then I did. This happened for the last time in September. So it's been almost 7 months since I've gotten a perm! How exciting!

Words cannot express how excited I am to be transitioning! I'm excited about become re-acquainted with my natural texture and trying different styles. But at the same time I'm a lil scared. Scared its not gonna look right, scared I won't know what to do with it and other things. But my excitement overrides my fear. My anticipation is killing me!

Soon I'll be chopping this straight boring shit off and embracing my naps! Can't wait :D


Sheena said...

It is exciting =) but hard to it's a whole growing experience. That I'm so happy I went through. Sometimes, I'm like wdf I hate this lol but then after i wash it and put it together I'm like awwww my baby my hair lol.

Tanya said...

Shatera I feel you, but I do not have any regrets and don't think you will have any either. I get so many compliments from people and believe it or not, many people will envy the fact that you are wearing your hair in its natural state. You see, sometimes we worry about what other people will think. For me personally, it was very liberating and as your friend Sheena said, after you wash and style it, you'll realize that you did not make a mistake. Just remember to moisturize and you'll be good to go! Love you...and welcome to the "Natural Side"!
Your Auntie...