June 5, 2009


I was gonna write about my hair, but I'm not in the mood at the moment. Yeah I chopped off my straight hair and I feel great about it, but I'll come back to that later......

Right now I feel like shit. This is not a good thing. I came home from school excited, happy for the summer to come and all that good stuff. But right now, I have no idea where any of that excitement is. I've been applying to jobs all over and I still don't have a job. I know it might take time and the job market is bad and blah blah blah. I know all of this and yet I still feel like a big loser for not having a job yet. It may not even be my fault, but I feel like it is. Like somehow me not getting a job yet has made me some sort of failure. What the fuck is that crap? That doesn't even make sense to me and yet that's how I feel. I've been stuck up in my house these past couple of weeks with nothing to do and this shit is depressing the fuck out of me UGH. I need something to do or I'm gonna go crazy. Someone mentioned volunteering, its something to do and you could put it on a resume. That's great and all but there is no money involved which cannot possibly work for me. I'm not a money hungry person. I'm not concerned with going shopping every week and going out to spend money, that's not me. BUT I am in college and next semester is going to be crazy and being a poor college student is not gonna work for me. I can't just call up Mommy or Daddy for money like so many people I know can. That just isn't an option for me, at least not at this time. So I need to work and get money to save up cuz lord knows I will need it. Ugh, maybe I'm just depressed....ewww I don't like that. But its how I feel right now. Like BLAHHHHHH :(

1 comment:

Video Vix[o]n said...

I've been in your shoes and believe me, they aren't comfortable (wait, i'm kinda still there sometimes, but i digress)

have you considered temp work? it not much, but there's a better chance working for possible $10-11/hr for a few days than doing nothing...

if you want to know more about it, hit me up... you know my digits.

in the meanwhile, miss bored... you should write about how you feel and how it relates to the economy, and possibly put it in a publication... just a suggestion.