I miss me. I've been so caught up in my own sad bubble that I've neglected to take care of my soul. I need so much more than what I give myself, than what I allow myself to do. It's like I'm constantly wondering, "when will I get my confidence back?" And I'm tired. Tired of feeling like blah, tired of being in my depressing ass house, and tired of neglecting my spirit. I need to be free. And the only way I can do that is to let go. Let go of my fears.
You wanna know a secret? My biggest fear is that if I allow myself to be free, I'm gonna be really great at whatever it is that I do with my creativity. What kind of bullshit is that? To be completely honest, I think I'm brilliant. Its sooo hard for me to say things like that because I like staying humble. But I'm humble to a fault. I shouldn't be so modest that it comes off as me being insecure. I need to own my greatness. Its there, I just have to nurture it.