Hair Update

My hair has become less and less important to me. For months now, I've known that I wanted to cut it. Because it was the winter, I decided to wait until it gets a bit warmer to do my second big chop. So in the meantime, I've been wearing a lot of protective styles. Mostly because I'm just over my hair. Here's a few of my looks:

Straight crochet braids with a "knot less" part.



It just wasn't working for me, so I took it out after a week and put in Marley hair. I initially did a braidout on the hair, then I did straw curls.

 

Then I bought a half-wig from Outre named "Annie." I looove this hair because it looks like my hair straightened. It blended really well and a few people thought it was actually my hair. Yeah right! lol



For my birthday I decided that I wanted big hair. So I made a 3/4 crochet wig with Marley hair and did a braidout.  My hair blended perfectly!




And I'm currently wearing another crochet wig that I made with Glance Waterwave. Loooove this hair!



I just did a straw set on the 3/4 wig so that'll probably be my next look. And after that? Chop chop! I'm looking forward to cutting my hair. I'm just ready to not focus so much on my hair. I also just want a new beginning, and this chop will be a part of my process.

Loud Self Love

Writing Prompts from The Quiet Guide To Loud Self Love by GG Renee Hill

I want my life to say beauty, growth, accomplishments.

I want to feel warmth and pride when someone asks what I do for a living.

What types of people and places make you feel comfortable to express yourself and be creative? Genuine people. Loving people. Non-judgmental people. 

I want to give the gift of me to the world. (too vain?)

Being around people who have found their purpose and use their gifts inspires me.

Being around people who talk endlessly about nonsense drains me.

I love to be complimented on things that I’ve created.

I always feel intimidated by talented people. Their talent doesn’t intimidate me, it’s their ability to be fearless in the moment and share it with others. I’m trying to get to that place.

I love to write, but I rarely if ever make time for it in my life.

Beautiful music, especially when performed live, makes me feel euphoric and magical and thankful to be alive.

People often ask me for help with ______.

I often catch myself daydreaming about getting my life in order. Accomplishing simple things.

If time and money were not concerns, I would spend my time reading, writing, playing music and singing.

I feel ugly when ______. It’s not often that I feel ugly.

I feel beautiful when the sun shines on my face.

One of the confessions in the book stood out to me. Most likely because I could've easily written it myself.

Confession:

“Both failure and success terrify me. I don’t take chances because I don’t want to experience extreme highs and lows. I don’t think I can handle it. But deep down, I know I want more.”

I love GG Renee so much because its like she knows me. The way she writes, the things that she says...its like she's my long lost twin lol 

well, hello there...

It's been a while, I know. For the past four months, I've been neglecting this blog. I didn't want to write. I just kept thinking, who would read it? Who would care? Am I even interesting? Am I just going through the motions with this thing? Well, today I've come to realize that the answers to those questions do not matter. And why not? I need to write. It is a part of me that I have been neglecting. And that may be a part of the reason that I feel so lost. I haven't been my best lately. So I figured why even write anything? Who cares about my troubles? Well, even if no one else cares, I should. So I decided not to give up on this blog. I will make an effort to write down my thoughts and feelings, publicly. More for me than anyone else. Because I need it. I do. I need this.